The Maze

KOI DEEWANA KEHTA HAI…

2010-09-20T00:13:00.001+05:30

Meri kismat ko tu jitna badal le magar sunle

Jo mera ho nahi paya woh tu mujhe de nahi sakta

(these lines have been inspired by Dr Kumar Vishwas’ poem Koi Deewana Kehta Hai)

A PIECE OF ME (14)

2010-08-09T10:12:00.001+05:30

Humming…

Sapna toota hai toh dil kabhi jalta hai

Haan thoda dard hua par chalta hai

…

par nahi chalta na yaar!!!

ps : This post has NOTHING to do with matters of my heart!!

YOU AND ME (10)

2010-08-04T09:51:00.001+05:30

Dear You,

You are too precious to gamble with, yet I keep playing a game which I have never won. I know the dice would never role a perfect score, yet I don’t know why I keep throwing them.

I don’t want us to hang by the thread of a single emotion. I need you everywhere, I want to see you everywhere. This thread is too fragile and my hands are too sweaty, and if I let go you won’t be anywhere. So please help me grasp a little more, please help me hold on to some more. Please let me be a part of you and not just US.

Yours,

A PIECE OF ME (13)

2010-08-02T21:43:00.001+05:30

The sum of my past adds up to to ZERO!!!

HAPPILY EVER AFTER?

2010-07-28T12:00:00.001+05:30

Not every fairy tale has a happy ending. Not every decision has a sound logical reason behind it. And yet sometimes one doesn’t need a reason to make a decision. Not always are these decisions made for good. Not always do these decisions make you smile. You know you had the other option, the option where you would have not cried but frankly how long can a person lie to oneself. Sometimes you just care too much about the other person to hurt them anymore, even if that means hurting them once and hurting yourself forever.

Your thoughts at that moment are like this meandering stream; no matter where the stream is flowing its final destination is the ocean where it gets lost. No matter how hard the stream tries not to meet the ocean but in the end even it knows that its identity would finish once it reaches the ocean. The vastness of that thought, the emptiness of that thought is just too big for the stream. In a split second everything is over, whatever moments there were are now just memories. The drop of the stream cant be distinguished from the salty water of the vast ocean. The salty water does not taste good; you can’t live in it, and yet you know you cant live without it. Irony…Reality!!!!

The salty water of the ocean, the vastness and yet the emptiness; the salty tears flowing from your eyes, the emptiness inside. Sweet memories to live with, harsh realities to live in. Day on day life moves on as before, but I know life would never be the same again. The eyes see something else, the mind says something else and yet deep inside the heart feels something else all together…ya…not every fairy tale has a happy ending!!!

THE TRUTH IS…

2010-07-18T12:59:00.001+05:30

…one night you’ll look at the heavens and realize your lucky star has faded away.

YOU AND ME (9)

2010-07-13T08:59:00.001+05:30

YOU cut yourself everyday…

…without realizing the wounds you are giving ME

SAVE ME

2010-07-05T05:27:00.001+05:30

I search for myself tonight. I search in your dreams…and yours, and yours and yours.

Sleepless, mindless, wanderer!!! Who am I?

Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

uggggghhhhh!!!

DISCOMFORTING SILENCE

2010-06-05T20:22:00.001+05:30

Discomforting is the silence of the one you love…

…especially when it is not for you!!!

A QUOTE

2010-05-26T12:22:00.000+05:30

There are those hearts, that never mend again once they are broken. Or if they do mend, they heal themselves in a crooked and lopsided way, as if sewn together by a careless craftsman.

- The Tale of Despereaux

A PIECE OF ME (12)

2010-05-19T12:10:00.003+05:30

I am only a man
Not an Angel as you once said
I am only Human
And like a Human I bled!!

SHARED STARDUST

2010-05-09T09:37:00.001+05:30

I look upon the sky calling the star my own…

I forget the star looks down calling the whole earth its own!!!

DARKNESS RULES!!!

2010-05-06T21:49:00.001+05:30

Light thinks there is nothing faster than it…but it forgets that everywhere it goes darkness has already reached there first!!

YOU AND ME (8)

2010-05-06T11:34:00.002+05:30

I LOVE rains...they make me crave for you.

I HATE rains...they make me crave for you!!!

YOU AND ME (7)

2010-04-28T10:45:00.006+05:30

Just like dreams emerge from the darkness when we close our eyes
sometimes reality surfaces from the darkness of shadows

A PIECE OF ME (11)

2010-04-11T00:42:00.001+05:30

They ask why I keep losing my scarf in the mulberry bushes…

…I ask why do I keep losing!!!

TEARDROP

2010-04-10T15:46:00.001+05:30

I found a tear-drop in the corner of my eye today…

…I am afraid to blink now for I don’t know what memories it carries

OH NARCISSUS!!!

2010-03-18T14:45:00.001+05:30

Oh Narcissus!! Thou art me
Both are victims of vanity
Both died to shattered dreams
Mistaking self for divinity

OH ICARUS!!!

2010-03-17T13:15:00.001+05:30

Oh Icarus!!! Thou art me
We both flew, breaking free
Both fell to broken wings
Mistaking sunshine for destiny!!!

A PIECE OF ME (10)

2010-03-14T11:42:00.002+05:30

Everyone claims to know me…I claim I don’t know anyone
I am single and I am happy. Relationships and me are not made for each other.
If I care for you doesn’t mean I love you, and if I love you doesn’t mean I am in love with you.
Sleep is my escape.
I like living in the bubble of my dreams rather than harshness of reality
I suffer from ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder).
I maintain my friend list to only people I talk to. I don’t want and I don’t like “known strangers”.
I like talking in metaphors and analogies, and I am closet to people who can do the same.
My senses need continuous stimulation. Stems from ADHD.
It’s very easy for anyone to judge my state of mind. I can’t hide my emotions.

A PIECE OF ME (9)

2010-02-23T15:43:00.002+05:30

I feel like the author of a mystery novel who doesn't know the end himself...

...most of the times it's fun but then again I'll never be a bestseller

A PIECE OF ME (8)

2010-02-22T20:49:00.001+05:30

How can I expect you to understand…

…when I myself see a stranger in the mirror

BORED

2010-02-19T11:51:00.004+05:30

Ok...here's the thing...I am bored!!! Bored of everything and almost everyone.

Yeah I know it happens a lot with me...but this time it's very different. I have been trying to fight this feeling for a lot of days now but it's not helping. I don't feel like talking to anyone, no calls, no text's...deleted my facebook account blah blah.

I don't miss anyone...I don't wanna miss anyone. I don't feel like sweet talking, I don't feel like loving. I don't feel like pampering anyone...I don't feel like getting pampered either.

Maybe I have just got bored of the questions...I am saying maybe!!! But the thing is I don't wanna be answerable to anyone. I hate it when someone tells me what to do. I hate all the gyaan. I hate all the free advice. I hate it when anyone tries to analyze me. I am irritated with all the monotony. I am irritated with non-existent fake feelings. I am pissed at people who don't care yet show you mean the world to them. I am lonely, even with so many friends around I feel alone.

Whatever!!!

A PIECE OF ME (7)

2010-02-08T15:09:00.006+05:30

You expect me to gift you flowers...

...when you didn't even bother coming for my Funeral!!!

MOMENTS & STORIES

2010-02-03T12:00:00.001+05:30

Stories may not always be written for the moments in them…

…but moments are always remembered for the stories they tell

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Ek baar waqt se lamha gira kahin

wahan daastan mili lamha kahin nahi

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Why should I tell you Who am I?

Why should I tell you my stories anymore?

For I thought this moment was ours

What I didn’t know was this story was only yours!!!

TASTELESS STRAWBERRIES

2010-02-01T12:31:00.002+05:30

Was I wrong when I imagined the world covered with ripe pink strawberries for now all I see are empty wastelands…brown dust, brown ground, me fallen in that brown mud!!!

Was it just your bright spark which blinded my senses…another illusion for me to crave for, another mirage which I couldn’t touch…

Blame me for I laughed with you…blame me for you made me smile…blame me for I saw you in my dreams…blame me for you made me dream!!!

Now when I open my eyes…all I see are empty skies!!!

A PIECE OF ME (6)

2010-01-28T11:27:00.003+05:30

I don’t ask you to make me the one...

...but please don’t make me one of the many either

PIP-TALES & PUMKIN (3)

2010-01-27T19:29:00.002+05:30

Pip : On a scale of 1-10 I love you 13!!!

Pumkin : Why only 13??

Pip : Wanted to limit it, otherwise you would take me for granted

Pumkin : Huh??

Pip : I hope you never understand that statement!!!

PIP-TALES & PUMKIN (2)

2010-01-22T16:55:00.002+05:30

Pip : I'll share you here...but in after life you are only mine!!!

Pumkin : The demons might fall for me...you see I am so white :D

Pip : I am the biggest devil there ever is so I can overcome them...I just have problems with nice people

Pumkin : Hell wont have nice people

Pip : It would have you!!!

PIP-TALES & PUMKIN (1)

2010-01-20T15:10:00.005+05:30

Pumkin : Why am I Special??

Pip : Specials are for menu cards...you are Precious!!!

STRAWBERRIES ARE SEASONAL...

2010-01-19T16:30:00.003+05:30

...sadly addictions are not!!!

A PIECE OF ME (5)

2010-01-14T21:12:00.001+05:30

Blank Stares at Blank Walls

Hazy Pictures sum it all

Smiles are just for moments in a day

Thoughts carry on forever.

SERENADE

2010-01-11T15:39:00.010+05:30

Faceless silhouettes behind closed pink drapes
Mixed emotions of fluttering hearts
Soul intoxicated to your mysterious ways
Strawberry and Chocolate delights!!!

…OF MUSES AND STRAWBERRIES

2010-01-10T10:52:00.001+05:30

We really don’t expect Muses to grow on stalks…but unexpected are the ways of the illogical mind. But then again there is no logic in words…or emotions for that matter.

HA HA…When did I ever make sense??

MAYZ-ISM (1)

2010-01-08T22:08:00.001+05:30

The happiness you get out of love is not in Loving someone…

…its in letting that person know that you Love her.

“BRIGHT”

2010-01-07T19:22:00.001+05:30

Got caught in the glow of Bright Pink Flashlights……

…… :D :D :D

FILL IN THE BLANKS

2010-01-06T20:31:00.001+05:30

……………………………

……………………………

:) :( :D >:D< :| :(( :-O :-S

GIVE ME SOME SUNSHINE

2010-01-03T21:22:00.001+05:30

Give me some Sunshine…

Give me some Rain…

Give me another chance I wanna grow up once again!!!

COMPLIMENTS

2010-01-01T21:53:00.001+05:30

They say the best compliments come in the form of words...

…But the best compliment I’ve ever got is when you loved me

GOD ONCE TOLD ME...

2009-12-31T14:54:00.005+05:30

...Every bad thing that happens in your life has a reason...but all good things happen 'coz I Love you a lot

When I met YOU I knew he's never loved anyone more than he's loved me

GOD DOES NOT ANSWER LETTERS

2009-12-29T16:32:00.001+05:30

Last night I glanced up into the moonless sky reflecting what seemed to be the glow of a million fireflies…like the high ceiling of a church reflecting the soft glow of hundreds of candles lit under it to appeal to the almighty. The gentle ruffle of leaves like those serene hymns echoing against the wall of that mighty palace in which he resides. Then there was silence again…darkness again…a final glimpse at the sky only to realize God does not answer letters but he does talk to you in your thoughts.

YOU AND ME (6)

2009-12-22T21:08:00.001+05:30

They say best things in life come free…

…then why did your smile cost me a thousand tears??

A PIECE OF ME (4)

2009-12-19T22:05:00.001+05:30

To Love is an art…sadly I have lost my Paint Brush!!

HAPPILY EVER AFTER??

2009-12-07T20:41:00.001+05:30

Falling down an abyss…no end…feels like one shadow leads into another…

Groping like a blind man trying to search his way…there is no light…no way

Everywhere I look its just a desert…it looks the same everywhere…no end to the sand…no end to this gloom…Falling, Crawling, Drowning…

Tied to the shackles of time…bound to hope…deserted hope…hope deserted me…

One mistake…

Once upon a time…

…Not every fairy tale has a happy ending.

YOU AND ME (5)

2009-12-06T21:43:00.001+05:30

The difference between you and me is that I miss you…all the time!!!

A PIECE OF ME (3)

2009-12-05T10:09:00.001+05:30

Even if my cheeks don’t shine with tears…

…doesn’t mean my eyes don’t get moist

YOU AND ME (4)

2009-11-26T08:37:00.001+05:30

My Life in your Thoughts was a little too short…

…My Death in your Memories was a little too soon

A PIECE OF ME (2)

2009-11-25T21:08:00.001+05:30

Don’t be so indifferent that my own reflection refuses to recognise me…

AAJ DIN CHADEYA

2009-11-20T07:16:00.001+05:30

Maanga jo mera hai

Jaata kya tera hai??

Maine kaunsi tujhse Jannat Maang Li……

OUR WORDS

2009-11-16T13:14:00.003+05:30

I don't blame you for the words you said...

...so please don't blame me for the words I couldn't

PUFF

2009-11-14T13:53:00.001+05:30

Puff the magic Dragon

Puff….went the magic Dragon…

Lived by the Sea

who lived in my eyes

and frolicked in the autumn mist

and hid in the winter mist

in a land called Hanah Lee

so none could hear his cries.

Little Jackie Paper

Litlle mayzie wayzie

Loved the Rascal Puff

Loved with all he had

And brought him strings and sealing wax

and gave his hearts and words

and other fancy stuff

to be told you are not the one…

DEW DROP ON THE ROSE PETAL

2009-11-04T17:19:00.002+05:30

The night bore no witnesses…calling none but we
No eyes to stare, just stillness, you and me.

No moonlight this time to shine of your skin.
No silhouettes in the darkness, no dungeons deep.

There were no poems recited just raw passion unleashed,
No eyes to stare, just stillness, you and me.

There was a whole meadow to choose from
But I picked the rose, one petal at time and pain of the thorn

...or was it the other way around??

No words spoken, just moans and sighs
Heartbeats exchanged in the calm of night.

Hushed up words, secrets kept,
As the night passed into light…
The colour of your lips, or was it the prism,
The sun came out to reveal the smiles

When I climaxed to the taste of dewdrop on the rose petal.

YOU AND ME (3)

2009-11-03T11:30:00.001+05:30

You : Where are the missing words of your heart??

Me : I guess lost in your warm embrace…

You : I thought these were your thoughts about me

Me : Exactly!!!

…

2009-11-01T21:36:00.001+05:30

Indifferent to my own Fairy Tale…

…no more words!!!

YOU AND ME (2)

2009-10-30T20:09:00.001+05:30

You, Me and a little bit of hope when you brushed your lips against my salty cheeks…

LUCKY STAR

2009-10-27T19:46:00.001+05:30

I tried holding you in my palm without realizing I was robbing your glitter…

I tried capturing you in my heart without realizing I was imprisoning your shimmer…

…and yet you let me shine in your radiance…my lucky “Star”

BANG BANG

2009-10-22T22:11:00.001+05:30

BANG BANG…She shot me down

BANG BANG…I hit the ground

BANG BANG…That awful sound

BANG BANG…My Baby Shot me Down!!!

YOU AND ME (1)

2009-10-19T14:56:00.001+05:30

ME : Sing me a lullaby and let me lose myself in you

YOU : I sang to the winds for you, didn’t they bring it?

ME : I did hear an eluding whisper…

A PIECE OF ME (1)

2009-10-18T15:39:00.001+05:30

A little more pain than I can bear...

…A little more blurred are the visions I wanna see

BLANK

2009-10-17T23:15:00.001+05:30

How well could I prepare myself for this pain. I saw it coming…I knew it was going to hit me…yet I didn’t shy away…walked straight into it like a fool. And then I felt it…like a thousand burning knives piercing through my naked flesh…I could crawl up and cry, yet I didn’t. I knew it was my doing…tears would just evaporate in the heat of the scream…and yet their was no noise…just silence. Kuch samajh nahi aa raha. Everything is blank. The pain of the scream seems to be burning me inside….slowly eating away all the happy thoughts I have.

I woke up on a wet pillow…there are still pieces left of your memories. I tried to burn them, scratch them, tear them…yet everytime I do that there is new scar on my being. I thought i’ll treasure you forever but the treasure is cursed.

Either cut me into pieces or just drown me…anything to put an end to this pain….

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

LITTLE STAR

2009-10-16T12:50:00.002+05:30

Twinkle Twinkle little star…lost my way searching for ya!!!

…and now I don’t know my way back :((